Today, I sat back and watched people. All day long. I observed lonely old men with canes, feeding pigeons in the park. I observed business men and women, looking busy with their cell phones and suitcases. I watched couples fighting. Stoners talking about their highs. Teachers lecturing. Parents yelling. The jocks. The goths. The plastics. And the random people, worrying about the random things like grass stains on white shoes and panty lines. I observed the rebels with their obvious concern to have a lack of concern. The little girls chasing after the musical ice cream truck. The Asian tourist trying to capture every moment on camera. The retired, elderly ladies who spend their days gardening and reading books. The homeless man that talked to himself.
I saw all of this, and I thought it was great. No matter how much I hated watching a couple tell each other how much they loved each other, or how much I hated seeing people stare at the retarded kid with the awkward hip... it was all great. I got to see everything that pisses me off, and everything that makes me happy. I saw everything that I don't pay attention to because I just don't care, and everything that I should be paying attention to. I saw everything.
And I wonder, if I could step out of body for a day and observe myself, how many things would I see that would piss me off? And how many things would I see that would make me happy? I wonder how many times I would look in the mirror. How many times I would fix my hair. How long I would sit in the sun. How much time would I spend with my friends? How many times would I lie to people? How many times would I lie to myself? How hypocritical would I get? How loving would I be? How hateful would I be?
And most of all, I wonder how much I would let myself down, and just how much I would amaze myself.